Happy New Year’s Eve!
The last few days/weeks/months of 2014 have gone by so quickly. There are so many things I wish I had accomplished. Things I wish I had time or energy to complete. So many more blog posts I wish I had written. But alas. We all wish we had done things differently now that they’re over, but there’s no use in regretting what you didn’t accomplish.
I don’t like making resolutions. “New Year Resolutions” seem very cheesy to me, and most people always break them before February is over. I mean, they can range from “I won’t eat as much chocolate” to “I will have more respect for people who have different opinions than me,” but people break both just as easily. And, the majority of the population only make resolutions for the New Year. I love new beginnings (see this previous post), but this isn’t the only time you can resolve to better yourself. At any point during the year, it is never too late to change your behavior.
So for this new year, I resolve to not stop making resolutions, whenever I find something about myself that I don’t like. (And I’m not talking about body image here, really this is more about personality/actions/integrity.)
I don’t make New Year Resolutions, but if I did, they would be:
I resolve to stick to my guts. I resolve to not be afraid of being afraid, but to also not let it keep me from doing something. I resolve to journal more, write everything down so as not to forget it. Lessons learned during this decade I just entered are going to be some of the most important of my life. I resolve to trust and forgive people more than I usually do, and to know that it’s okay to take a break sometimes. I resolve to make myself a better person day by day, because we each live day by day.
I hope each of you have a Happy New Year (and to stay safe tonight!!)
Thank you for reading during 2014, and don’t stop as we venture into 2015!
I’m always late on these blogging things. The posts write themselves in my head, just transferring the thoughts from my head to the computer is always the hardest part. But, yesterday was Thanksgiving.
For me, Thanksgiving is just one of those holidays that just, is. I don’t love it, I don’t hate it. My family is pretty small, so there’s never a big to-do with tons of food and family time. I mean, yes, there is tons of food, but that’s because we always cook so much so that we can have leftovers for days. (#turkeyandstuffing5ever)
Thanksgiving is also that time where everyone on social media posts things like “I’m so thankful for…” and “#thankful, #blessed,” etc. I get kind of stingy around Thanksgiving because I like to think that I’m thankful all the time, when in reality, I’m not.
If you think about it, we say the word, “Thanks” for almost anything. Someone gives you a present? “Thanks!” Someone asks how you’re doing? “I’m good, thanks.” Someone holds the door open for you? “Thanks.” We fill our lives with this word without really taking into account what it means each time we say it.
Thank (v.)- to express gratitude to (someone), a courteous response, “a heart full of thanks”
Did you read that correctly? A heart full of thanks? Now, how many times do we have a heart full of thanks when someone holds the door open for us? I’m grateful, but I don’t feel like it’s the greatest gift in the world. Sometimes the word “thanks” can be used ironically (it was the second definition Merriam Webster gave me). The irony here is that a heart full of thanks is quite the opposite than saying thanks ironically- it kind of shows that you don’t really care. Perhaps if we started structuring our thoughts around the heartful definition, we would actually be more polite. The sense of unimportance in doing kind deeds would disappear. And, it would make ourselves more gracious to actually notice how our actions affect people.
But, enough with my criticism of society. I am eternally thankful for several things:
- I’m thankful that my parents pay for college. I don’t know where I would be if they were not here to support me, verbally and financially. (I would be in a lot of debt, that’s where I’d be..) I know for a fact I don’t say thank you enough to them, so I extend my first heart full of gratitude towards my parents.
- I’m thankful for my friends, whether they be the friends that let me vent all of my anger and rage over silly things or the friends that make spontaneous plans and allow me to forget all of my current troubles. I would be an emotional wreck without my friends, and I don’t give them enough credit for all the work they do in my life.
- I’m thankful for the parts of me that make me, me. Wow, that didn’t sound like an egotistical statement at all. But seriously, I am thankful to be unique. I don’t embrace my crazy enough (more on that thought will come later, my friend), and sometimes I wish I were different. But, at the end of the day, specifically, Thanksgiving day, I am grateful to be myself with all of my flaws and rough edges.
- I’m thankful for the Internet. This post would not have made its way to you without the Internet. I’m also thankful for this free country we live in, with no media restrictions. I’m free to voice my opinions, whether they be with the mainstream argument at the time or completely contradictory. Thank you, First Amendment!
And with that, I’m off to get some sleep before a busy day of Black Friday shopping. I hope you had a wonderful Thanksgiving, and truly remember what you mean when you say the word, “Thanks.”
*Disclaimer: There’s no picture for this post. Sorry.
I know. I know. It’s been over two weeks.
I have had so many ideas of what to write about, so many things I wanted to share, and yet… I have been too busy to even sit down and write. I wanted to tell y’all about the struggle of midterm papers, the first college Model UN conference I got to go (!!!!! So exciting!!!!), my newfound appreciation of T.S. Eliot (everything but The Waste Land), The Unauthorized Autobiography of Samantha Brown (a musical I found on Youtube that never made it to Broadway but it is so excellent I wish I could fund it to get there myself), the arrival of fall (it’s finally cold here!!) and everything in between. October was a really busy month, and November honestly doesn’t look any easier.
I have learned several things this past month. It’s been a topsy turvy kind of semester, one of those where I think ” Oh, this is just a busy spell, it’ll be all good soon.” Wrong. My refusal to listen to anyone’s warnings about overextending myself has once again shown me my stubbornness.
I got sick last week, and I’m just now starting to get better. I tried to do too much with too little time in the day, like always. This isn’t my first post about this, and it won’t be my last. However, this time it wasn’t my mental capacities that broke down. My body couldn’t handle it this time.
Ways in which you’re sure to implode, mentally or physically:
- Overscheduling to the point where there are three things to do at the same time on the same day. And still attempting to do all of them. Check.
- Not eating enough nutritional foods. Check.
- Not getting more than 6 (at max) hours of sleep each night. Check.
- Not being able to work out. Check.
All of these led to me getting sick enough where I had to stop going to class and just rest for several days. I’m still not 100% back on my feet yet. It’s hard because I feel like I’m missing out on so much, but leaving time for your body to recover is really, really, REALLY important. (Sometimes I need to take my own advice…)
I had thrown myself into college this semester, which is great, it’s a wonderful thing, don’t get me wrong.. But I have completely neglected my blog and everything I wanted to do with it. My blog doesn’t exist just for you to read. It’s also for me. It helps me reorganize my thoughts and recharge. I’m not writing these things just so you can see that I live this perfect life. All too often we use social media as a way to brag about the good parts of our lives while hiding the rough. But seriously….do I sound like I have it all under control? I’m learning every day how to be a more efficient, compassionate, organized, hardworking adult. As I’m nearing my 20th birthday, I thought I would have the answers by now. I don’t. I don’t think anyone will ever have all the answers. But this blog is here for me to show you the answers that I’ve figured out along the way.
So I’m sorry that I got too stuck outside of my own head. I have a tendency to either get stuck inside or outside. Balance is what I lack and it’s what I need to find the most. One post a week is all I’m promising. But it’s a promise, and it is my November resolution to make it happen.
I just hope you’ll join me in figuring out how to balance everything in our crazy, overscheduled, workaholic lives.